It pains me to watch you burn to embers tonight
your body glows in the flame's pale light.
and as i watch you burn i can not help but cry
what could have been? what could have been?
these flames are real they tear me up inside
what had you seen? what had you seen?
close my eyes, my body sleeps tonight
but my heart still wants to know if your alright
i have closed my eyes, my pillow is soaked tonight
in tears from the pain of this tortured life
i am waiting on a shread of hope within my soul
you left behind only glowing coal
in my sleep the flames have consumed my mind
is it over? is it over?
Long ago, in the land of Li'mor there was a princess named Aria. She was a very beautiful princess and had many choices of suitors, yet all of the so called "valiant" knights that came to ask her hand were vile men, only in search of fame and glory for themselves. Princess Aria wanted a man who would rule her father's kingdom with a kind and generous hand, and not like the men who came boasting of the blood they had lustfully spilt. So one day the princess came up with a plan: she would take on the role of a peasant, and as a peasant go and look for a suitor that could show her the kindness and generosity that it would take to rule the kingdo
Surrender to your hate
Your fear makes you weak
Power is in destruction
I have what you seek
This is the day
Take all you desire
Vanquish your enemies
And set them on fire
She had been here before
That's why it hurt
He was so close
So wanting to know
But could she control it?
What she wanted to feel
Would it overtake her?
The other was gone now
He was different
And she herself had grown
When his fingers caressed hers
It felt better than before
Would he be?
Could she know?
Break the veins
Bleed the silence
The deception is all I see
Take a breath
Quench my anguish
As I suffocate so slowly
Cut the wrists
Fade the pain
I lay dieing in your arms
Promised to save
Given for life
You took all my scars
In the darkness
I am numb
Soaking through my pores
She still waits
Lost of feeling
Consuming all of me
Clawing at the walls
My breath fades
Waiting for the time
Wanting something more
Left with nothing
Haunting for days
She never sleeps
Lost in the darkness
Hating those who know
They keep her awake
She shows me how
But he can't see
He loved them more
He hated her always
She was always special
The time draws near
Yet the feelings don't flow
You still look at me like it's ok
But I know the fear in your eyes
Your promises are lost to me
You have hurt me too many times
And so I wait,
I wait for the knife
Bleed my tortured soul
Release the pain
Break my heart
Leave a stain
Leave me numb
How do you hide it so well?
The lust for vengeance on your enemies
Every day you wait in anger
Numb from the words you have heard
Over and over again, so many times
They have fallen upon your ears incessantly
You have come to believe them
And now I am the only one left to comfort you
"Worthless wretch," I scream
Throwing insults until the tears flow freely
Your weeping and convulsions sicken me
I beat at your face until my knuckles bleed
Yet, on my lips I can taste your tears
As you stare at me through the broken glass
Bullets:
4.10.04
// i was in this car and some dude comes up with a gun and shoots at me, i was crazy like the matrix, but some how they got a person that was with me, then everyone just dissapears and im left there all alone, //
The Hunter:
4.12.04
// i was with a group of people and this bounty hunter comes after me with a shot gun, or some sortof heavy weapon, then im like "whoa we can talk this through," and so he agree's to talk to me, i have no idea what he or i said in the convo but i do remember the dudes eyes were really freaky, his iris' was heat sensitive, so when he would blink it would get colorfull and then when his eye lid
k here is a list of some of my weird dreams
03.4.2 5:49
I was an exorcist and there was this guy and some other people who I was with, we cast out the demon but there were these flames like bad special effects, then it came back. Afterwards I saw a horse without skin that was thrown into a large mouth with more fire. then i woke
???
Another dream: I was at a strange concert and this man was singing, there were people in a gourd sort of thing jummping around. Then we shifted to a room,there was a spear at my feet and a voice said we would have to kill to live after a few people died (none killed by me) we shifted to another room. I woke
Drink our blood eat our corpses
we did not submit to you
May our ashes be your glory
a symbol of the paths to choose
Status quo is your definition
You call the masses to conformity
Being same is your only mission
Stifle those who have eyes to see
Tears of chaos fall from my eyes
As the clouds bleed over me
Tortured souls I can hear their cries
We shall die? We shall see.
I run from you, yet trapped in a room
Your thoughts are invading
Locked inside, I must escape soon
The walls are slowly closing
Shards of glass betray my hands
As the walls silently speak
Your words choke me like metal bands
Try to take the life you seek
A quick slit and needles fly
So not to hear the baby's cry
One eye left and one eye right
A perfect face destroyed in plight
"No" they say, "it isn't wrong"
Yet this one never heard a mother's song
Aborted oh those beatiful eyes
Aborted oh just to hear her cry
Aborted another soul
Aborted she was chosen to die
Another soul purged for sin
Modern sacrifice just to cleanse
With bloody hands and greedy eyes
Population control always justifies
Ten years later now no need to clean the house
She can't ask, "Can I go outside?"
She won't nag, "Can I sleep in your room tonite?"
She won't argue that she d
Her blood screams to leave the veins
Falls to the floor
The knife helps to release the pain
Trapped in her soul
When I looked in those eyes
I wanted to hold you
There is more to this life
Let me show you
oh how you cried
The pain has it left you?
Still trapped inside?
How can I save you?
I reach for your soul
Just longing to sooth
I'll show you to be whole
Which way will you choose?
She sits in a puddle of her blood
Cold and crying
The tears release like a flood
Thoughts keep prying
"Who in this world could want me?"
I tried to run to you
Slit your wrists one more time let them bleed
See that crimson hue
Oh how I cr
Bullets:
4.10.04
// i was in this car and some dude comes up with a gun and shoots at me, i was crazy like the matrix, but some how they got a person that was with me, then everyone just dissapears and im left there all alone, //
The Hunter:
4.12.04
// i was with a group of people and this bounty hunter comes after me with a shot gun, or some sortof heavy weapon, then im like "whoa we can talk this through," and so he agree's to talk to me, i have no idea what he or i said in the convo but i do remember the dudes eyes were really freaky, his iris' was heat sensitive, so when he would blink it would get colorfull and then when his eye lid
How do you hide it so well?
The lust for vengeance on your enemies
Every day you wait in anger
Numb from the words you have heard
Over and over again, so many times
They have fallen upon your ears incessantly
You have come to believe them
And now I am the only one left to comfort you
"Worthless wretch," I scream
Throwing insults until the tears flow freely
Your weeping and convulsions sicken me
I beat at your face until my knuckles bleed
Yet, on my lips I can taste your tears
As you stare at me through the broken glass
The time draws near
Yet the feelings don't flow
You still look at me like it's ok
But I know the fear in your eyes
Your promises are lost to me
You have hurt me too many times
And so I wait,
I wait for the knife
Bleed my tortured soul
Release the pain
Break my heart
Leave a stain
Leave me numb
In the darkness
I am numb
Soaking through my pores
She still waits
Lost of feeling
Consuming all of me
Clawing at the walls
My breath fades
Waiting for the time
Wanting something more
Left with nothing
Haunting for days
She never sleeps
Lost in the darkness
Hating those who know
They keep her awake
She shows me how
But he can't see
He loved them more
He hated her always
She was always special
Break the veins
Bleed the silence
The deception is all I see
Take a breath
Quench my anguish
As I suffocate so slowly
Cut the wrists
Fade the pain
I lay dieing in your arms
Promised to save
Given for life
You took all my scars
In the darkness
I am numb
Soaking through my pores
She still waits
Lost of feeling
Consuming all of me
Clawing at the walls
My breath fades
Waiting for the time
Wanting something more
Left with nothing
Haunting for days
She never sleeps
Lost in the darkness
Hating those who know
They keep her awake
She shows me how
But he can't see
He loved them more
He hated her always
She was always special
Current Residence: where i am Favourite genre of music: hxc, emo, punk Favourite style of art: abstract, anime, anthro Skin of choice: my own Personal Quote: That shirt really brings out your... eyes.
ok all im Back, (ya i knew you missed me).
so heres how life is going, OATH's show is in about 3 weeks and were really gearing up for it. we have had the best practices in ever and all of our songs are going to be killer cause we've revamped em a ton. so every one :mosh: .
drop me a line i'll hopefully have a flyer soon and then illl be able to pass it out. i do have directions tho. so you ppl can chill with me at the show. Darby refuge and Godspeed will be there along with me band Oath. its in dayton oh, on the 29th of oct. so be there or be square
ok, i havent submitted stuff for a while and i shant cause right now the band is working on perfecting all of our songs and so i think ill wait to write stuff till the concert. is over. and done
may be a one or two.... but not much.
*this is the edit for maTT* cause he is cool
Last night was killer. before the concert i took advantage of Matt by doing "pet the prep for a buck" was pretty cool made a buck, nothing else tho :(. Then straight seven rocked the place with some cool songs. then staple brought the whole house down with all their chaotic melodies, there were some cool ppl in the small mosh pit ( that consisted of like 6 ppl) there was a dude from the project 86 show that remembered me and my killer scream, and then there was the divided we fall lead singer. infront of the mosh there were this tinny bopper girls that were looking at me like i was crazy, that was
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